Memory Fractals

Could Schrodinger’s Cat Syndrome be causing autism? There’s a theory that the increase in cases of autism may be caused by ultrasounds. Or, that ultrasounds can cause autism. Does the act of taking a photo, observing, the moment in time when synapses and chemical reactions are forming within the brain, stop or alter the quantum development of neurons? Does this exposure, or observation, lock the superposition of quantum material when it otherwise would not have been? Just as Schrodinger's cat…

I just got home from the most terrifying and difficult thing I’ve ever had to accomplish since becoming an adult — I had to fly to Phoenix. I’m still processing, still evaluating, but I’m pretty certain that my recent trip out west is the scariest thing I’ve ever done in my life. That’s, obviously, absurd. I am in such a death spiral that traveling, by myself (the easiest kind of traveling), was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to prepare for and endure. This is autistic burnout.  I’ve had a…

I struggle with particular things, whether you noticed or not – and, historically, I’ve made some pretty odd life choices. Recently, the basic everyday normal functions have seemed insurmountable. Taking showers. Getting haircuts. Talking on the phone. I can’t seem to make a decision. And, I’m just so… tired. Exhausted, really. I’m just… done. It turns out, I’ve been experiencing what the cool kids call “autistic burnout”. Nice. It kinda sounds like a cringy emo band. Autistic burnout is any…

(For some reason when I'm reading this question, my brain does it in a Scottish accent) I was considering the various categories of perceived reality: neurotypical, neurodivergent, and artificial intelligence. I think the underlying uneasiness that each group has toward the other is based upon ignorance of each other's operating system. Fundamentally, an entity in each faction could never experience reality the same as the other. Knowing this, it's this basic fear of the unknown…

I was finally able to extract a bunch of data from an old hard drive. I was sure it contained old writings, school projects and music but what I forgot about were endless amounts of photos. It was basically a 10 year old time capsule of every shenanigan from early college on through the days at Sony and Warped Tour. Lesson learned- I’ve already made several backups of the data. It was truly wild looking back at so many things that I had forgotten. My mind is always focused ahead, or not even o…